Birds chirping and sky softly lite by the rising sun. It's early and I can't sleep, with the kitty close by and my tall glass of water I wonder what I'm supposed to be doing right now? Should I just sit and stare at the fb screen waiting for the next early risers post, climb the stairs to my huge bed and curl up in my nest of pillows or type a memory or two? My little bundle is sleeping inside me and it feels so nice to know he is resting. Ten and a half hours South of here my son sleeps soundly in the hands of God, two hours South West of that are most-likely the girls. It's just me and the pets, kitty is sleeping and so is puppy, the birds stopped chirping outside, and the sound of Over the Rainbow softly plays mixed with my typing. So what am I supposed to be doing? With my life with my relationships? What does God expect from me at this very moment, this very morning? I'm exhausted, does he want me to rest? I'm restless should I take action and if so in what direction? Lately I've felt a little confused on knowing what He wants from me or what he wants me to do. It seems as though Satan is taking time out to focus on me, making it hard to see clearly. If it were me I would brush him off and say oh whatever... BUT I so desperately want God's will for my life and my families. He knows that and
The above was written a while back on May 26th, today is June 29th, what's odd is I feel the same way this morning. A few things are different, I can't hear the birds or over the rainbow and the puppy and kitty are wide awake, honestly the only sounds I hear are the laundry and my tapping on the keys. So really nothing is the same except the way I feel inside. Once again though the kids are sleeping hours away and I 'm wondering how they are doing, are they covered up and sleeping peacefully? I know that the almighty has a protecting hand on them and it gives me so much peace and satisfaction. I've been wanting to blog for what seems like months now, but I get on and my mind becomes one bog blank page. So I thought I would start with something simple... Just start talking. :) So as you can see above I ended my little note with AND lol, I guess at that point I decided to go up to my nest of pillow and snuggle into my huge bed. I wonder what I would have said if I were to stay down and continue writing.
I guess we'll never know.
